Friend or not ?

Well , i'm awake (:
But i don't feel like posting about ytd ? Cause' someone dizgust th shit outta me . I only knew my eyes was red . . .
What's the point of apologising now ?
It doesn't seem to help , you think one sorry can make up for what you'd done ?
So if i stabbed you in th heart and say sorry , it's okay lah .
Don't blame me for being cruel , cause it's you who hurt me first .
I told myself ytd , i'm alr used to how you pangsehed me .
And perhaps , i could really adjust to that life . . .
Although it may seem hard , but i try .
Joey's strong , i won't break down cos' of you .
Sorry if my words are like thorns , but i still have to say it out .
I spoke to Shing-E ytd , she totally knows how i feel .
As for you , i alr gave up .
If you don'thave her , come find me .
What do you think i am ? A spare tyre ?
Or a substitute ?
I'm tired of letting you play me all the time . . .
Gimme time to accept you back , if the day doesn't arrive , then blame yourself fr not treasuring your friends .
If you know the pain that's hurting so bad inside , you will understand . . .