Hi, not in a good mood nao. School's been quite fine. Drama today was funny, we played scissors, paper, stone with our bodies. The stone action was to stick out our butts, mad cute. :)
Ms Paula told us smth which i find really cool, heh. I would also have slapped that girl right in her face since she made a big huha over a whole thing that men couldnt hit girls and so on. ;)
P.E was hell. Did warmup for napfa, ran like four rounds, and stopped in between to do some exercises. It was hell tiring, and i was sweating like shit aft recess still! All of them said my face was still red. Heh :B
English was boring, chinese was even boring. Huang said she was in the basketball team last time, like real! She so short, even shorter than me, can be in the basketball team? Help ppl pick ball can, shooting cfm N.O.
Science was interesting, electricity isnt that hard as i think, i guess? I shld start bucking up for my phys alr. If im still getting that sucking grade, someone shld slap me right in my face.
Pizzahut with dearest aft school. Showed her stuff, h2h talks like always <3
Went hub and gaigai alwhile, bought bbt. And eeeeee, hub's sweettalk sucks. Or maybe just for my strawberry iceblended, and dearest's peach-strawberry's as well.
Webcammed with fel aft i bathed. She's at thailand's lobby using the internet there. Like cool only, there so style one. Hahahahha. And i saw mummy too! She keep eat her hanzi, or fried banana. HAHAHAHA. Im glad she's coming back tonight. Cant wait to see her tmr, and what she bought for me! ^^
At 6+, i went over to dearest's place to slack since i had nth to do at home. She was all the way busy talking to wesley ong on the phone hahahahhaa. Saw smth that made me got so pissed off and started ranting to dearest, sissy and val. I will heed their advice man! Luv you guys. These are the peoples that are the most impt ones to me, cos they never fail to be there for me. Luvluv! ^^
Reached home at 9. :) Meeting dearest tmr morning for breakfast before going to school! Its been a long time since i ate mac's breakfast. Hm, what shall i eat tmr? Hotcakes? :D
And school ends at 10.40 tmr, yay! \m/ But dearest's meeting her friend. Got no idea where to go, so sad :( Hah, shall see tmr if i have any plans. Bye lovelies.
What you wrote on tweet today, yes i saw, i dont deny. I was really disappointed at what you wrote, claiming that you are tired of putting up a smile, and said you gave your utmost best and what about me. Ha. You have the guts to shoot me huh, looks who's the one talking. Who was the one who gave in everything. Who was the one who was always there for you. Who was the one lending you a pair of ears whenever you need. In this friendship we had, i valued it more than all others. Cos you were someone i could trust, so much. And could talk to whenever im down, and will never fail to cheer me up. But whenever you had problems, did you ever think of telling me? Nah, you do tell huiming, your cca mates, anyone but me. I thought i was your best friend, i thought hey you treasure and cherish this friendship. But no, you dont at all. I can tell you this, you dont even care about how im feeling whenever you hide things to yourself. Everytime when i see that you'r sad, when i ask you what happen, im just hoping that you will pour out everything to me, and perhaps that would make you feel better. But again, you dint. I was hoping once and once that you will share your thoughts with me. But did you? No. Since im someone who nvr gave my utmost best like what you say, i shldnt from now onwards. I valued us more than anything else, but from now, i give up. Are you happy this way? Do you know why i always make noise, do stupid things, make silly faces and all infront of you? Cos i want you to be happy and to be laughing. Im stupid for doing all this. I will stop from today onwards. I will be alone during class activities and stuffs. Its okay, since you have huiming and co. to acc you, i guess im not needed at all. I will be alone, im alright with it. Outside school, i will be better with dearest's company, and sissy's, and val's, and so much other more. I will be fine, i will try to adapt this type of lifestyle in school. Rmb we had a big quarrel once? I cried so much over our friendship, and now i found out that, actually the scar from then, havent fade yet. There's still a gap in between us. Still, it hasnt changed since thn. Isit my fault, or isit your problem? Im tired of giving in so much. I got hurt by him alr, i dont need this kind of torment to pull me down again. Not everybody is strong, i will collapse one day too. Cos you were the closest to me ever since he left. Tell me what friends are for. Is this how friends should be? Nah.
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